the white buffalo

'Hi Jessica:

Congratulations on being selected for the Rotary Youth Exchange year. You are about to start on an incredible experience which will change your life.

Your application has gone to the Netherlands. I cannot guarantee 100% that you will be accepted by the host district until the Guarantee forms are returned to me. However it is very rare for an application to be refused. The exact location of the host club will not be known until the guarantee forms are returned.

I suggest you start working on the Dutch language and research the country customs. It is wise to go with as much knowledge of your host country as possible.'

i held him in my arms at night and saw parts of his soul turn to ash. then i saw him reborn, with a stone in place of his heart

for sandy 1945 - 1998

1.
You came to me this morning
And you handled me like meat
You'd have to be a man to know
How good that felt how sweet
My mirror twin my next of kin
I'd know you in my sleep
And who but you would take me in
A thousand kisses deep

I loved you when you opened
Like a lily to the heat
I'm just another snowman
Standing in the rain and sleet
Who loved you with his frozen love
His second-hand physique
With all he is and all he was
A thousand kisses deep

I know you had to lie to me
I know you had to cheat
To pose all hot and high behind
The veils of sheer deceit
Out perfect porn aristocrat
So elegant and cheap
I'm old but I'm still into that
A thousand kisses deep

And I'm still working with the wine
Still dancing cheek to cheek
The band is playing Auld Lang Syne
The heart will not retreat
I ran with Diz and Dante
I never had their sweep
But once or twice they let me play
A thousand kisses deep

The autumn slipped across your skin
Got something in my eye
A light that doesn't need to live
And doesn't need to die
A riddle in the book of love
Obscure and obsolete
Till witnessed here in time and blood
A thousand kisses deep

I'm good at love I'm good at hate
It's in between I freeze
Been working out but it's too late
It's been too late for years
But you look fine you really do
The pride of Boogie Street
Somebody must have died for you
A thousand kisses deep

I loved you when you opened
Like a lily in the heat
I'm just another snowman
Standing in the rain and sleet
But you don't need to hear me now
And every word i speak
It count against me anyhow
A thousand kisses deep

2.
The ponies run the girls are young
The odds are there to beat
You win a while and then it's done
Your little winning streak
And summoned now to deal
With you invincible defeat
You live you life as if it's real
A thousand kisses deep

I'm tuning tricks I'm getting fixed
I'm back on Boogie Street
You loose your grip and then you slip
Into the Masterpiece
And maybe i had miles to drive
And promises to keep
You ditch it all to stay alive
A thousand kisses deep

Confined to sex we press against
The limits of the sea
I saw there were no oceans left
For scavengers like me
I made it to the forward deck
I blessed our remnant fleet
And then consented to be wrecked
A thousand kisses deep

I'm turning tricks, I'm getting fixed
I'm back on Boogie Street
I guess they won't exchange the gifts
That you were meant to keep
And sometimes when the night is slow
The wretched and the meek
We gather up our hearts and go
A thousand kisses deep

And fragrant is the thought of you
The file you complete
Except what we forgot to do
A thousand kisses deep